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its seems like i'm updating my bloggie almost few days once :/

cause i wanna express whatever i wanna say through blogging.

i just feel so lonely nowadays :(((

the loneliness that i can't even expect for now! sighhhh :(((

i always thought i won't be lonely anymore after i settle down my friendship but it aren't :(

what i'm expect didn't come true!

i know the more i expect the more i will disappointed and i really mean this now :((

i'm like watching movie, sitting down in front of tv or lappie almost everyday, no chatting with them, no outing, no texting, this days for me is like i'm staying alone in a dark room, like almost the end of the world :(( so scary! seriously! :((( 

for me, the more people around me, the more i feel lonely because i just can't get into them, talk with them, chat with them :(

i rather going to college alone, wait for class alone.

nothing sucks worse than feeling alone, no matter how many people are around, that's what i mean!

friendship is just so important for me, and family too

i feel so lonely without them :((

my wish for now is asking parents to get a car for me, so that i'm able to drive to college everyday without relying them, i'm so fed up with myself the way i have to act in front of her.

 i feel really bad! i can't displease her :/

i talk to mum just now that i wish to get a car now, and she agrees with me, so that i'm more convenient and she said she'll talk to daddy! hehe, thank you mama! love you :)

i just feel so lonely now like what this picture show, i really mean it! :((

py :(