; 92

日子过得很艰难

我还是撑下去

每晚都睡不着

有时胃痛着痛着的就睡着了

快乐的时间过得特别快

谢谢你

我朋友很少

但在我最伤心，失落时，

你陪着我

好的事情最后还是结束

我们也好像结束了

谢谢你陪我走过的那些路

因为当时的我真很幸福，很快乐

对不起! 我所做过的，讲过的，一切一切

py,sorry

; 91

Hi people, i'm here again :)

feel so fresh today, woke up early in the morning! :D

 watch movie alone, listen to music alone :) 

sometime i feel great being alone, i know i'm weird! but who cares! :p

the first time i woke up so early in the morning although i got no college today, *claps for myself* :D:D

and i slept so early last night! went to bed at 11.00pm!

had a short talking session with the sister, and fall asleep after that :)

but msg woke me up after 30 min, urghhh! and i tried to sleep back again! lol

i fall for my hubby's song again :)

想自由! :D:D

i feel that my hubby is getting more handsome, cute and talented! never regret to fall for him! :D

he just the best in my heart! :D

yeah right, i feel that whenever a person is in a worst down mood, every song for them is sad! 

it do so for me too!

last time, i cry whenever i listen to this song, i just don't understand why!

cried so badly!

 cause i just feel that the lyric is talking about me, i used a very negative way to think about me!

 how sucks is me, how worst is me :((((

but not now, i use a very positive mood to listen to this song, it represent a different meanings of lyric :)

sometimes, everyone do will make mistakes,  me too!

i just hope people will give me encouragement and comfort me when i make mistakes

don't dumped me :)

lol, today me, i clipped up all my hair, feel fresh! :D

gonna make experiment on some food after my lunchie, don't fail k plssss! hahaha :D

and i know that i have to appreciate the time being with them, it just don't left much time, i know, i know! :)

hope to have a great day this coming week before finals :)

and i know i have to work real hard for the coming finals next week! don't play play anymore py!

dear marketing, don't fail me k, i wanna proceed to degree, thank you! hahhaa :D

hmmm,

wanna watch movie now! 

bye people, have a nice day :D

py :D

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Make me smile when I'm with you. Hold me tight when I'm next to you. You'll never know if I leave tomorrow.

This is so true, i hope it happens on me, but FAILED :(((

i don't hate anyone

sometime, i just blame myself, hate myself for such stubborn, stupid, useless, everything :((

Sometimes I don't realize I care for someone, until they stop caring me. :((

sometime i really try to fix things up, but they fall apart again.

我们没有在一起! 

i love this song so much now, i can repeat and repeat for the whole day! this song just like describing me now :/

damn it, insomnia find me everynight :((

i don't know why!

and i feel so sleepy and headache now :(( 

ate pannadol cause i can't sleep at all :/

okay, time to rest now ! goodnight people :)

have a nice day :D

py :)

; 89

Hi people, i'm here and updating my blog, had been long time i dumped my blog i know

sorry for that cause i'm quite busy this few weeks :/

doing the same things every night, haha!

not studying, not revision-ing but others! 

finally, i'm recovered from the stupid fever

fever on yesterday morning, really KNS

i hate sick so much! :/ 

have to eat those medicine, forced to :X

i don't like it! 

hmmm, sleep the whole day yesterday

and i hate it when i'm so sick and i wanted to rest at night

insomnia visited me again! KNS

off to bed at 12 plus and finally fall asleep at 2 plus! ishhhh!

and i had really fabulous night at last thursday

celebrating mj's belated birthday with them :)

had thai food as our dinner 

and we went overtime after that

took a lot of picture with them!

no picture for the celebration here

cause i had lots of things to do now! paiseh!

射手座

"所有的悲伤，总会留下一丝欢乐的线索。
所有的遗憾，总会留下一处完美的角落。
我在冰封的深海，找寻希望的缺口。
却在午夜惊醒时，蓦然瞥见绝美的月光。"

为什么我们在努力的行走，前方却越来越黑暗，我们要去向哪里？即使是世界上最黑暗的角​落，也有愿意照耀着你的星星，带你找到前方的路。

okay people, have to go now!

will update my blog more :)

have a nice day!

byeeee :D

; 88

what i can say now is,

i messed up everything, really ;(

i turn it upside down for everything, how shitty is me :/ 

i just felt so damn guitly now, no jokes ;(

the biggest mistake i had made, shame for myself :/

i just wanna express it for myself, no offense actually. ;(

i'll keep in heart, everything.

time heal everything i know but can time just please pretty pass it abit faster? ;(

i found out night outing can heal my broken heart, guilty heart!

everythings poped out at my mind whenever the sky is dark, i just don't know why :S

and i found that insomnia finding me constantly this few days

when i know i can't even open my eyes, my mind is at the offline mood

i went off to the bed, close my eyes, trying to sleep but everythings just flashing in my mind like saying hi to me! ;(

 i can't sleep well this few days

i slept almost 5am everyday :/

and i feel so sick now, bodyache, headache visit me again

i feel like fever is going to visit me very soon too ;(

i feel so tired now seriously

i did my quiz quite badly yesterday i guess ;( hmmm

i know i can't look back, i just can move forward, good luck py :)

i feel so damn tired now, i want a good rest now, can i?

please just let me fall asleep when i off to bed later k. a little request from me!

i just regreted what i had done ;( the word just describing my feelings now, the complicated feelings i had ;(

*如果当时你坚持，回忆会不会不这样？

i know i'm fine now :)

good luck py! :(

; 87

its seems like i'm updating my bloggie almost few days once :/

cause i wanna express whatever i wanna say through blogging.

i just feel so lonely nowadays :(((

the loneliness that i can't even expect for now! sighhhh :(((

i always thought i won't be lonely anymore after i settle down my friendship but it aren't :(

what i'm expect didn't come true!

i know the more i expect the more i will disappointed and i really mean this now :((

i'm like watching movie, sitting down in front of tv or lappie almost everyday, no chatting with them, no outing, no texting, this days for me is like i'm staying alone in a dark room, like almost the end of the world :(( so scary! seriously! :((( 

for me, the more people around me, the more i feel lonely because i just can't get into them, talk with them, chat with them :(

i rather going to college alone, wait for class alone.

nothing sucks worse than feeling alone, no matter how many people are around, that's what i mean!

friendship is just so important for me, and family too

i feel so lonely without them :((

my wish for now is asking parents to get a car for me, so that i'm able to drive to college everyday without relying them, i'm so fed up with myself the way i have to act in front of her.

 i feel really bad! i can't displease her :/

i talk to mum just now that i wish to get a car now, and she agrees with me, so that i'm more convenient and she said she'll talk to daddy! hehe, thank you mama! love you :)

i just feel so lonely now like what this picture show, i really mean it! :((

py :(

; 86

i feel lifeless now :/

passed up assignment today, and i'm freeee now

but i rather having a lot work to do because i really feel lifeless now :/
its sounds crazy, i wan homework, assignment :(((
i wan't those day when i work hard on the assignment and revision until middle of the night 2 or 3am, until i can't even open my eyes, like what i used to do this whole sems :/

i wants tone of work to do to cover up myself, i wants to be busy so that i won't simply think about those sad things, can i?

sometimes, i just don't understand what human thinking, its weird, really weird :((

can say that my heart is just too weak, i can't take it easy like how people take it!

how ridiculous it is :/

time flies, its almost the end of this sems

my wish on the first of this sems is please end this sems asap, and yeah! still this is my wish now, still the same

and now i have a little wish, i hope our friendship could turn back like how we used to treat each others last time but i know its impossible.

i looks fine in front of you but there is a scar in my heart tho i had did what i should have been done, the scar will always on my heart, forever and ever :((

thus, i have to remember of every scar on my heart because each one holds a lifetime's worth of lessons.

i learned a lot this years, life is not easy ok :/

my heart is like broke into half today when i thought she will follow but she walks away.

i just feel bad, weird, heartbroken like seriously, tears dropped immediately, no jokes, i guess i appreciate and care our friendship too much :(((( and you will never knows like forever!

i just wish you will care me a little when i'm in a trouble, i'm sick, i'm down :) i just wan't a little care from you like last time what you used to do.

py :(

; 85

its has been long time i never update my blog because i just don't feel like blogging seriously ;( 

its like finally i got such a mood to blog right now cause i got something to blog it!

the reason i love blogging is i just can express whatever i wanna say in blogger

sometimes, somethings are hard to say out, its work when typing it or writing it out, seriously :)

i'm doing quite well recently ;) 

college life is normal ;) friendship is okay! at least i'm happy right now :D

apologize once again on what i did, i just don' mean it :)

There's no wound that can't cured, there's no mistake that can't forgiven. As long as we have sincerity. :)

i don't feel awkward with them anymore, great news for me!

just done with my midterm, went out alot after midterm which are :

sepang gold coast with them <3

dinner with them :)

dimsum with them :)

sakae sushi with them :)

shopping with the girls

yumcha with the girls until like midnight 2 plus! gosh! but i enjoy it seriously, love girls talk so much :D

my life is just normal now but right i still feel weird with him and him! hmmm!

i just had a weird feelings now, idk why ;(

people around me just doing so weird! mygod!

i was like finally i settle my friendship problems and now it pops out another again!

why my life is just so dull? hmmm ;(

i don't understand la seriously!

and i face a serious, horrible, not logic, weird moment with they two!

pls respect me, i knows everything, i can observe things very clearer, seriously!

i hate it when i was together with you guys and you two are texting each other infront of me!

i don't understand the logic :/ what is the logic please? 

like seriously, i miss those memories we had last time! 

miss our friendship so much, we used to hang out together, camwhoring using my lappie, skype everynight, texting each other when boring but no more now! 

i miss those day! ;( 

but i know what done is done, past is past ;( have to move forward ;) 

life is unfair, we just don't cry over the past, we cry to get over the past. Don't smile to hide the pain, we smile to heal the pain! :)

i feel like i have been grows up a lot seriously! hahaha :D

okay, time to off to bed now! goodnight :p