Saturday, October 29, 2011

; 121

Hi people
i'm here again
hmm! like finally i watched love you you with the girl :)
which recommended by the shapo!
she said this movie is touching, she almost cried in the cinema


and i did cried in the cinema :(
nono! *tears dropped only*
its really touch!
i like the girl in this movie
 she could able to act like a normal person although she had hearing problem since young
she act strong in front of everyone just to avoid gossip from others
she act strong although her parent passed away since young
i want be like the girl too, so that i could act happy in front of everyone eventhough i'm sad 
and i have lots of movie wanna watch right now
paranormal activity 3, real steel, the cat and i'm waiting 那些年,我们一起追得女孩!

i need part time job like seriously
and i'm finding now, have to attend an interview on monday at old klang road
hope they will hire me!
so that i won't feel lifeless
i always make myself busy at doing something so that i won't reflash everything about us :(



yes, i miss him again right now, very BADLY! :(
he is the one who i think of everyday before i sleep and by the time i wake up
he is the one who i think of when i'm down, when i need someone to accompany
i really wish you were here, talk to me, comfort me, sweet talk with me :(

*这世界上有奇迹吗?
如果有, 我希望我们可以再从来 :(

py 



Thursday, October 27, 2011

; 120

Hi people
i know it have been long time i never update my blog
sorry about that because i'm busy with my finals and assignment last week
now here i come :)
cause i'm done with my finals and my sem break starts :D
i promise i will blog more often :) i promised :)

i feel great cause i think i did well in my finals! *claps for myself*
although i have been passed through toughest days with tears, sleepless night
 hope i will get good result :) 
i'm doing well recently friends, don't worry :) i'm fine, i'm fine :)
had little birthday party with the college friends right after our finals
had fun with them, played monopoly card with them
learn lots new game from them :)
our party ended at 1.30am, and i drove back alone
sad to say, its super scary driving alone in the midnight :(
i feel the loneliness, confused :( 
cried in the car at the late night
i think of him again, he used to go out with me last time until late night last time
he always accompanied me, talk to me but no more now
memories flashing back again :(

the next day
my lovely girl birthday celebration :)
the one i always mention in my blog, siuwai
the girl who always accompanied me when i'm down, solve problem together with me, give me advices 
i told her everything, she is like my second boyfie :)
i love her much :) she taught me a lot :)



the first time, i made a card for her <3 hope she like it and the present i bought for her :)
went souled out, jalan ampang :)
the new open outlet, there is another outlet which located at hartamas area

the late night yum cha's gang :)

happy birthday dear! <3

three of us :)

i love them, they always accompany with no matter what :)


hope she love the birthday surprise and celebration we made for her
girls, i love both of you! ALWAYS :)
how nice is her birthday celebration, her boyfie created a birthday celebration for her with surprise
i wish my birthday can be like this too!
i really thought my this year birthday celebration will be great, different because of him
i thought this is the first year i can celebrate with the my boyfie
i thought this is the first year i can get birthday present he gave me
i thought this is the first year he is the first one who call me and wish me happy birthday
i wish to have a perfect birthday celebration with the one i love :(
i really wish to get a big sweet surprise from him this year
but no more now :(((

okay, and i went back my ex college today to collect my original foundation cert



and went snowflakes with the shapo at midvalley after that :)
the japan combo set i ordered, not nice! :S
but i had really great time with her, we talked a lot :)
going to watch paranormal activity 3 with her next monday! can't wait :)
and our fahrenheit shopping plan, levain plan :) gonna make it on when she is free after her assignment due date :)
okay, i'm gonna be hardworking a bit to search for part time job this weekends.
i wanna find a job like clerk, i wanna work for only office hours but get high salary
i know i'm greedy 
cause i wanna have some free time to hang out with the shapo and my friends :)

Day 20
the toughest day i have been gone through
really hard :(
like gone through the darkest night in the jungle alone :(
these days, i learned how to grow up, how to face toughest problem alone, learn how to live independent
i wish he were here accompany me, teach me everything :(
these days, i still dreamed of him :(
at a sudden, i worried everything about him, studies, health, family problem, everything
i miss him a lot a lot :(
hopes he is fine with everything there :)

*please rest more, take care of yourself there!
get recover as soon as possible
DO what you promised, stop sport for one month k. :)
i don't wanna see you injured anymore. seriously! :(
and sleep early always
goodnight! 

py










Thursday, October 20, 2011

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第十三天

早安 :)
昨晚又睡不好 :(
头痛,吐个不停 :/
请不要生病!
我下个星期一要考试了

昨天
当妈妈问到他时
我终于有勇气说口
我告诉我自己不可以哭
我不想要妈妈担心
但眼泪还是出卖了我
我还以为隔了十多天
我不会再哭泣
但往往说回让我最伤心,心痛的往事
我还是会很激动
眼泪还是会流下 :(

属于你的歌
我听着听着又哭了
还是留着我们的合照,对话
难免还是会很舍不得
真的很舍不得 :(
有时候,我觉得跟他认识到在一起
就像做了一个很长很长的梦
一张开眼,什么都没了 :(
只留下回忆
为什么就是要拿走我快乐的日子?:(


现在的我
天天都去健身房
想说这样我会比较开心
因为可以跟朋友一起 :)


* 我不敢奢求,你说你还爱我
我知道我再也不会占据你的篇幅 
但我想说我依然爱你
我想念你想念我的日子 :(

py :(


Wednesday, October 19, 2011

; 118

日子过得很快
下个星期一就要考试了
要开始温习了 :)

最近,一直约朋友出去
因为我怕一个人在家
害怕胡思乱想
害怕孤单
一个人真的很不好 :(
我会一直想,回想起我不想想起的事情
朋友也会无端端的打来问候我 
讯息问我今天如何了
我都说我很好 :)
即时我根本还没适应没有他的日子
因为我不想朋友担心。

朋友知道我还是会闷着闷着不开心
所以带我去gym :)
谢谢她,当我不开心时,陪着我。
我会跟她说我所有的事情
即时很闷,她也会听 :)


我喜欢去gym
虽然很累,但我很开心 :)
因为有她们陪着我
出一身汗
心情真的比较好
晚上也睡得特别好
可能太累了。

我开始失去了勇气
在朋友面前我试着隐瞒
但我学会了承受痛苦
为什么电台就是喜欢播放属于他的歌?:(
为什么路上就是那么多跟他相识的车?
这样叫我怎样放下?:(
这场游戏我玩不起 :(

*是你让我自己学会长大
我想你 :(

py :(

Sunday, October 16, 2011

;117


回忆越想抽离却越清晰
你给过我的回忆对我来说太美好了
我不想忘记

真的还以为自己已经可以很坚强了
但家人提起他时
眼泪还是会忍不住地流下
相起他抛弃我的那天
心还是很疼
画面很多
我叫我自己不要在回想了
但还是不能忘记 :(


告诉我自己我要坚强
哭过就好了。

*你开心我就开心
所以别为了无聊人生气了 :)

py








Wednesday, October 12, 2011

; 116

第四天

还是很不习惯没有他的日子 :(
就好像小鸟失去了翅膀
虽然我们在一起不是很长的时间
但我们毕竟相处了很久
我们认识了一年多
也相处了大约半年
我已经很习惯有他陪伴着我
当我最伤心时,他会是第一个出现
一整晚陪着我,听我哭诉
可以说我真的习惯依赖着他了 :(

有时真的很想忘掉一切一切
但我还是办不到
回忆真的太多了 :(
如果时间可以倒流
我一定会很珍惜有你的时候
想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去!

现在的我脾气变得不是很好
心情很差 :(
我开始很讨厌回学校了
我不喜欢当我们上完课后,我真的很累了
朋友一直叫我留下陪着她们
当我说我想回家
她们会不开心地说她们这里没有家,所以她们要朋友的陪伴
我真的不知道该怎么好 :(
我不喜欢她们一直在没有课的那一天安排集会
真得很累很累 :(
累得我真的很想哭 :(
没有他的日子
心情变得很差很差 :(

很想很想快点考试!
然后放假!

*其实是你让我开始相信爱情, 但你却在我相信时放弃了我 :(
爱到深处我才领悟
好的事情虽然结束了
但我还是谢谢你陪我走过的这些路
我想你, 很想你 :(

py :(

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

; 115

第三天

这几天都很忙
忙着赶功课
就是不想要胡思乱想
但往往有些事
越不想记起就越会留在脑海里 :(

也许我真的不够勇敢
毕竟相爱一场太多片段
告诉我怎样才是普通朋友?
假如你用心守候
那就不会是这个结果
其实你说的我都懂
但我却不懂怎样放手。

*为什么你在我最快乐的时候,才跟我说你不再爱我了?:(

py :(

Monday, October 10, 2011

; 114

第二天 

昨晚又失眠了
胃又不听话 :(
4am, 好不容易才睡着
噩梦又把我哭醒
真的不想睡着 :(

今天的我有比较好了
既然会跟朋友说我很饿
可能是没什么吃东西
谢谢朋友们的关心
我会学会坚强 :)


其实我只想跟别人一样平常
有个对的伴
爱着我, 陪着我分享快乐和悲伤
真的有那么难吗? :(
我真的不怕付出代价

现在的我, 
不需再担心他
不需在半夜等他的简讯,
等他跟我说他回到家了, 跟我说晚安, 说他爱我 :(
 真的很不习惯 :(
现在看到关于他的东西
想到他的一切
我都还会哭 :(
但我会振作, 会坚强
我答应了他, 我会做到
但我不懂我需要多久的时间
既然他不再爱我了 :(
那我会慢慢放下

*谢谢你的鼓励, 你的支持
*如果我快乐,幸福, 那你半夜的简讯我不需回复
真的很想你 :(

py :(

Sunday, October 9, 2011

; 113

第一天
没有他的第一天
翻看我们以前的谈话和照片
看着看着就哭了
超没用的我 :(
我很想他,真得很想他 :(

直到现在,都不敢跟家人说我们分了
只怕他们担心我
怕他们安慰我时,我会忍不住的大哭
我不想让他们觉得我不够坚强
妈咪问我为什么最近他都没来找我
我心很痛的说,他很忙。要赶功课 :(

有时,真的有些冲动想讯息他
但我知道他更本不会回我 :(
我一直告诉我自己我要坚强

在一起时,真的没想过我们几时会分开
我以为我很爱你,你也很爱我
我还以为你会陪我一起度过我的生日,圣诞节,情人节,你的生日
但你却离开了我 :(
不能陪我一起很开心的度过我们的生活,一起走下去 :(

我说不出爱他的原因
说不出欣赏他的原因
说不出他让我动心的原因
我就是爱他 

很想知道他离开我的原因
是我不够好吗?
还是他已经不是以前的他了?
也很想问,我们真的没有机会了吗?:(

*我再也没有机会听你说,老婆,我爱你 :(
也没有机会跟你说,老公,我爱你 :(

我要坚强,学会放下!

py :(

Saturday, October 8, 2011

; 112


21/9/2011 是我最开心的一天 
因为和他在一起了 
我很爱他,他也说他很爱我 
和他在一起真的很开心,很幸福 
我喜欢他叫我老婆,超甜蜜的
我喜欢他很开心,笑着的时候
我喜欢他无端端打电话给我
叫我起床,问我在干嘛
我喜欢他牵着我的手,抱着我,真的很幸福,很温暖 



这一天的我,真的很开心很开心  ♥ :)

但我万万没想到
就在今天,我们就酱画上了句点
我知道他已经不再爱我了
因为他常常敷衍我 :(
他有点不像平常的他
朋友都劝我跟他说分手
但我说我不要,我很舍不得他
因为我真的很爱他
我真的对这份感情很认真
伤得最深的, 往往都是放最多感情的
为什么你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品 :(

我很想见你最后一面,真的很想!:(
我不懂我要怎样度过这些没有你的日子
我一定会超想你 :(
我很怕一个人胡思乱想 :(
我爱你,真的很爱你
我珍惜时时刻刻的幸福
谢谢你这些日子的陪伴
虽然我们在一起只有那短短的18天
但那些回忆,我一定不会忘记

现在的我,
哭着的睡着,哭着的睡醒 :(
我很怕睡着
因为我怕我又梦见你
很惨忍的跟我说分手 :(
我知道你不忍心跟我说分手
因为你怕我会很伤心,怕我做傻事
虽然我也不希望你会和我说分手
我有一度以为我们会复合
但没办法,勉强是每有幸福的
长痛不如短痛 :(

*我依然爱你,希望你会快乐
但我会学会坚强,我要活得更好 :)

py :(