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:( :'( 就是我这几个月的心情

太多事闷在心里！想说但不可以 :(

音乐，眼泪，棉被是我最好的伴侣！陪伴我很艰难的度过了这四个月！

我真的很想很想回到过去，那高中的生活，至少我很快乐 :)

现在的生活很恐怖 :(

有时我根本不知道我做了什么让你们不开心，不喜欢，我真的真的搞不懂 :(

只能跟你们说对不起！真的很对不起

很多事情只是往往事后我才懂得！我很笨！:(

我知道我应该面对这些，但我还是选择了逃避

因为我害怕我承受不了

因为我胆小

对不起! :(

现在待在学院的时间很少了，少得我都觉得很奇怪 :S

每天一往学院大门走进，会有种不愉快的心情，很害怕 :(

最近都在发噩梦，全都是关于学院的生活，你们 :( 

每晚都不想睡着！:(

现在的我，只想要简单快乐的生活， 可以吗？

我不想失去你们这么赞的朋友

我没放弃你们，请别放弃我好吗？

缺乏友谊乃是最纯粹最可怜的孤单！

*曾经想过结束这一切，到更开心的世界，我很傻！:(

py :(

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hello blogger, im back :)
backed from hometown :) had really awesome days there! 3 days laughing non stop :)
and i forget everything when i was laughing! mad kia :p i feel stressless there! really!
omgggg, i feel stress again when im back to kl :(

today i feel like blogging my dear! guess who! ♥
my siao dear, siu wai! ♥
hello low siu wai, miss me anot jek?
i know you miss me cause i miss you too! hehehe *paiseh paiseh*
low siu wai! we got 5 years plus friendship already! remember anot?
we knew each others since form 2 but we get closer only at form 3! hehehe
we hang out together last time! ♥
we took sticker photo! :D:D ♥
we ate together ♥
we chit chat together ♥
we 38 together! ♥
we study together :) ♥
we play together! ♥
i miss those days! our high school life i mean!
you are the one who always give my advise when im in trouble.
always listen me bullshit-ing, be my listener! awww :)
i cried in the phone and you are the one who comfort me :)
you always asked me to don't think too much! ♥
i know i always think too much, thats my pattern :X

i love her ♥
i appreciate her! i feel glad to have her! dear low siu wai! hehehe
i have quite some friends but i had her as the one who most understand me, closest friend :)
i really don't need many friends, i just need few friend that won't betray me, love me, understand me :)
she won't abandon me although she got her boy :) still that sweet with her boy, congrats :D
she won't forget me although we studying seperately :)
she studying form 6 and im studying at coll :)
we stilll keep in touch, we went yamcha, hang out sometimes, blow water too! hahaha
she have a album of me and her in her facebook picture and me too! i love her ♥
i her secret and she knows my secret too :)
glad to have her! our 5 years plus friendship :D
aww, thank you so much! ♥
thank you for always accompany me ♥
thank you for always comfort me when i cried ♥
thank you for always giving me support ♥
thank you everything ♥ 

              form 5 us! :D:D

         happy 18th birthday dear! ♥

 took at my house, heading to pasar malam :)

             took at her house :)

      i love this picture! new year eve ♥

 me and her! ♥ i will love you more more low siu wai! :p

love me more more too ya dear! hehehe ♥
good luck for your STPM!
date me after done your exam this week! :D:D
hehehe
i love you and miss you! ♥

py ♥

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为什么?
我不明白，真的搞不懂 :(
请给我一个理由,可以吗?
我不想回到那里了,不想时间过的那么快 :(
如果可以我想回到以前
一切从头开始
眼泪又出卖了我!
每当我笑了，心却狠狠的哭着 :'(
我知道有些事情，我不该懂，也尼补不了

我真的很天真，很傻
天真到无药可救
我珍惜你，但你没有
我真心对你好，但你却不知道
我关心你，你却不理我

你变了
变得不像以前的你，不像我认识的你
还是我不够了解你?
你变得不能再对我坦白
我们友情的保质期有多久? :(
*我不需要很多朋友，我只要知心的朋友就好了

好想大哭一场！
我知道我要更坚强！
加油！我可以的!


py :(

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today is the day

mama's day! ♥

happy mother's day mummy, i will love you always! stay healthy and happy forever ya! ♥

my lovely mummy, i won't sent you to homes la when i get marry or grows up, don't worry la! hahahaha :D

some of our conversation :

Mummy always told me to bring her and daddy go for vacation when i grows up, visit them together with my hubby if i get marry, come back to accompany them if free and so on so on! hahaha, funny sia!

and i will answer, mummy, i marry our neighbour la, so that right i can come back home to eat everyday! she said don't wan't pls, i don't wanna cook for you everyday! lolllll! omggg, our conversation! cute right? 

and sometime she will praise herself that she was so beautiful and i will answer yea right? thats why you have a beautiful daughter like me :p

even sometime she said i'm not pretty and i will answer huh? so you means you not pretty too la? cause you born me out hor mummy? and mummy will LOL! love her! ♥

mummy, the greatest one in my heart! ♥

sorry for not listening to you sometimes, i know i'm stubborn :X

sorry for always going out after classes, i know you wanna talk to me sometimes :)

sometimes, i say i don't like you to scold me and nag me but actually i like it because it means you still care for me :)

MUMMY,

thank you for always wake me up when i was studying primary school :D ♥

thank you for always preparing every meal for us no matter how tired you are ♥

thank you for always fetching me to tuition when i was young ♥

thank you for keep listening to me when im down, especially this year :D ♥
thank you for always taking care of me when im sick ♥

i remember when i was young, i having serious fever and asthma and i was sent to hospital :X

and i have to stay at hospital for around one week until i recover :) mummy was the one who sleep with me everynight at hospital, taking care of me! brought me some food that i wanna eat :) thank lotsss, mummy ♥

MUMMY, I LOVE YOU! ♥♥

im so happy to have you this great mummy :)
seriously, i feel great to have you! don't say i don't love you because i'm just too shy to express it out! :X
i didn't bought anythings to mummy this year :X
i just wish mummy happy mother's day and give her a hug! i think its sweet enough for her! hahahaha ♥

today's me :) my serious eye bags, slept at 4a.m last night :(
going to have dinner with family now!

celebrate mother's day with family :)

py ♥

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people, guess what?
im having sem 4 now! which is the most boring sem because i just taking one elective subject this sem :X but i still happy studying and go to college because i have you guys as my friends! :D ♥♥
thanks god, i passed all my subject :)
three passes and 1 distinction for my statistic *actually, i'm aiming for HD, i study so hard but i know it wouldn't happens because i get a very low assessment, especially assignment part :(
mummy said, nvm, the world is like this, you will face alot of difficulty when you growing up, yes! mummy, i know :) i will try to solve it everytime :)

im taking marketing this sem :)
this sem pops out a new elective subject which is introduction to finance, my beloved
i might taking accounting and finance when degree
actually i feel like taking introduction to finance this sem but i don't really likes the lecturer, his lecture is boring :S i tried his finance class :X
so, im taking marketing :) the lecturer is cute! hehehe, funny! i likey :)
hope i can pass this subject and proceed to degree on sept smoothly :)

and im finding part time job now! since i got only 3 days class every week :) very freeee :D
please intro some job for me people! i need money! hahaha :D thank you sooo much! ♥

okay people,
wanna write about mama's day on my next blog!
stay tuned ya!
once again
happy mother's day mummy, my greastest one! ♥

py  ♥