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life is getting more complicated nowadays!
i hate 2011 seriously!
especially february which means a lot and most happy month for everyone!
but not me k?
february is a sadest month for me!
cried for dunno how many times, uncountable!
even cried for whole day because like losing you guys! :(
cried infront of friends, on the phone, in the room, and even in toilet :(
thing again and again happen on me!
i dunno why laaaa..... :(

mayb my heart getting weaker and weaker!
i'm not that stronger like what you guys think
yes! i can still smile and laugh infront you guys
because i'm just pretending, pretending that i'm happy, i'm alright!
my stupid tears dropped whenever i'm touch and some small sad stuff happens on me! OMG!
i care a lot, especially friendship!
i appreciate everyone of my friendsss, REALLY!
because friends and family both are most important things for me!
they give a lot supports for me!
i just don't wanna lose any one of you!
please don't leave me! i just love everyone of you! <3 really!
i know i'm not independent enough because i just get used with you guys!
i love sticking with you guys everyday, every moment!
just don't leave me alone! i'm soooo scare, i scare of darkness, scare of loneliness!

those stupid stuff and feeling just leave me k?
i dont need it! i just hate it! :(
gib me back my happy life like what i used to do last time!
smile everyday and laugh everyday with my sincere heart!


py :(