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recently hard to express my feeling!
my mood changed every moment! TT
and i dunno why~
my mood will turn up and down!
sometime very hyper and sometime super down..
and i dunno WTH i was thinking!!
and my tear will drop automatically T_____T
feel like self-mutilation when i was super down
OMG! I suppose shouldnt think like that =(((((((


since he scolded me that i shouldnt do that
so i try to make myself happy everytime i was down
pretend that i was happy eventhough im super down
and i feel so tired when everytime i pretending myself TT
it is super duper hard!
but i have to do so TT
and I HATE PRETENDING MYSELF!
sorry if i really bored you when i was emo-ing!


seriuosly, i need a friend
to talk to me everyday
share my sadness and happiness with him/her =))))))
being a good listener and listen what i wanna say
comfort me when i was down
sitting beside me and accompany me when i feel like crying
wont ask me for reason why im sad [coz im just not in a good mood]
text with me whenever im bored


AND
I NEED A BIG BIG HUG!! =((((((
feel like hugging someone right now and cry infront of him/her!